I officially turned “old” on Tuesday. Now age is relative and I’m fairly sure that aging is somewhat more a case of perception than reality but I can’t escape the feeling of being “old”. Even when I’m denial, my back and loss of short term memory remind me.
There’s something about the 40’s that gets people thinking about their lives with more scrutiny. I sort of put it off (despite some heavy journaling) for the first part of my 40’s. But now I don’t really seem to have much of a choice. Otherwise I will be fifty and still tempted to watch tennis, eat doritos & inhale ice cream all day.
To inspire some maturation, I decided to make a few birthday resolutions. Aside from the obvious one of being perfect, there are others which I feel compelled to adopt.
The first is to be a little more rude. Not so much in the Larry David or high strung New Yorker way, but willing to violate a few social norms. Let me explain:
For as long as I can remember (aging alert) I have responded to almost every text and email as if I were being graded. I follow proper syntax, stress over the punctuation and aim to make it the digital snippet of the five paragraph essay. This takes an inordinate amount of time and thought. I also happen to respond to some messages which frankly I have no interest in. So now that I am more aware of the finite nature of time, I am going to be a little “rude” at times by responding more efficiently and/or not at all in certain unimportant cases.
This resolution should last about a week 🙂
Pretend that the birthday hasn’t ended. The older I get, the more I need to pretend I’m special to make up for monotony and sometimes invisibility of the other days.
Resolution#3: Accept the inevitability of sleep deprivation. Pretty much every successful person must compromise on sleep so even if I am not all that successful, at least it wont fall short because I took my sweet ass time in getting out of bed.
Resolution#4: Pretend even more
Sometimes this means pretending I’m not at least half way through life and still push myself through exercise. And at times pretend that I am my age and do the things that normal, almost middle aged people do like paying bills in advance, doing yoga and getting better at golf
Resolution#5: Get the hell out of my car
I always knew that I spent more time in my car than I wanted to. Not that I would mind being a cab driver but for whatever reason, I feel like I am, in the words of Chuck Berry, always “driving alone in my automobile…..with no particular place to go”. This form of entrapment only seems to get worse with time and in a city where it’s almost impossible to use public transportation. Even at the expense of doing nothing, I’d rather not drive more.
Resolution# 6: Get my attention span back….. This resolution will also last about a week or two depending on how much I enjoy being distracted.
Resolution 7, ,ray and enjoy life because we are never guaranteed another birthday. unless of course we have very little to do and lots of bills to pay. Then we should live indefinitely.
Resolution#8: Count the hours, minutes and seconds until our son is born in October.
This seems like a good laundry list. I had intended to write more but by the time I was on the site, I had forgotten them. In part, this must be connected to all the birthday partying and yoga I’m doing 🙂